Thought Droplets

By being open-ended in what my morning practice's quiet time focuses on, like relaxing,  feeling pleasantness,  body scanning,  visualizations,  breathing exercises,  and processing thoughts my morning practice can easily take well over an hour. I should probably eventually have more structure, suggested from good sources.

The following document tries to help answer the questions: in which dimensions can activities be considered in? And, how does X activity (existing or being planned) fall in all possible dimensions that it could be considered in?  An activity can be anything a being does. It can be eating, watching something, playing a game, interacting with something. Dimension is a qualitative measure of how well an activity fits a certain classification. There's not an objective values for each. No direction/polarity in these dimensions is inherently better than another (e.g. one shouldn't necessarily think that one should always provide as much feedback as possible, as opposed to not providing much feedback) but each direction is better suited for certain objectives, so it could be useful to consider many directions. The benefits of considering these are that a person can more easily consider the benefits of improving a certain activity on certain dimensions (or make it supply a different ne...

Breathing is almost ideal. Still waking up tired and needing sleep in the mornings. Only changes I can think of to make are to return to eating chicken since I haven’t eaten it in more than 2 weeks and to fix my eating times since it is really bad. Morning  Sadhana going well. In this morning’s meditation I was distracted about the thought of what should be the objective of my morning meditation, since I don’t really have one. I concluded that, at least for the moment, it should be to just relax and have no purpose. To just be. 

In keeping with the idea of coming to meditation with an "I do nothing, I want nothing, and I am nothing" intention (as I saw in a short video), I've concluded that I should probably do a relaxation meditation in which I don't try to control the pace or depth of my breath, but rather just observe it, naturally letting my body tell me what is a more natural calmness for meditation, and, by extension, for life. When I do it I notice I start feeling heavier and more grounded more promptly. I've been getting a little bit more energy. Guess I just needed to exercise more. Breathing is getting better, as usual. I actually felt the simple sun salutation that was recommended to me by some Ayurveda doctors to open my chest and produce breathing that flowed more easily, whose sound came from deeper and had a little bit more energy.

I was invited to a 21-day exercise to bring abundance to life. I noticed I was ashamed of some of the terminology so I just decided to let go and accept whatever was suggested. I was challenged to notice abundance near me, and as a retort, I thought about how abundance might depend on my actions, but then I remember that is true but more deeply it is the nature of reality to create abundance so even if I forego abundance and suffer for it, it will come back in nature. I learned that it is not that miracles don't exist but that the classical miracles have little to no consequence in the world, and might be done just for show. Miracles like not being angry and letting go of all attachments are more needed right now. As usual, I keep wondering how to guide myself. I'm not even sure what I want to guide myself to. When asked about how to pray (considering there are some things that maybe one shouldn't pray for) my mother told me that while there might be stricter forms to appro...

I've noticed that a way to make sure that my upper body is in the right place (to have the spine comfortable erect) is to just try to move my head up as much as possible and then let it rest a bit on wherever the rest of my body ends, as opposed to thinking about what is the right curvature of the spine to hold. I've felt much joy just by being sensitive and grateful, and by starting my day with a hot shower that I turn cold in the last 40 seconds. I've been wondering how exactly to feel grateful and loving. I still have to improve the amount of energy in me so I need less sleep at night and throughout the day. I am almost waking up at 6 am. I think the moment I'm eating is determining the energy I have the next day, especially eating at night. I get confused when deciding when to eat because at the moment I should eat I either am not hungry or feel like I should do some spiritual practice (when I wake up). Over and out.

I thought I might document my spiritual/self-improvement journey so if and when I reach more useful/unrelatable results, it could be shown that the state I came from is relatable to many people. It will probably be raw even though I love crafting written pieces carefully. Today I've noticed I've been noticing pleasant smells more frequently than at other times in my life. I also think I've solved a lifetime of breathing discomfort (having a hard time catching my breath) by following a yogic breathing technique shown  here  called Simha Kriya, but I want to try a few more times to be sure. Over and out.